Oh dear – No new posts
since November! I had better explain myself…
I needed to step back
from the whole situation and bring some optimism back in! We had some rough
months where infertility was on the forefront of the mind. Being angry and
disappointed is an uncomfortable emotion to live with day in and day out.
Wanting something with such intensity is hard to live with each day. I couldn’t
bring myself to even open my blog as my previous posts drew me back into that negative
space. Happy to say that my mindset has done a complete 360, and I’m feeling
positive and optimistic again. 2012 is going to be an amazing year, and we have
much to look forward too. We have decided to wait for public funding due to the
high cost of going private, just IVF would be doable but the additional
procedures put it out of our reach at this stage. 2014 will be a big year for
us! We have decided that early 2014 we will have our Wedding, and towards the
end of the year we should be eligible for public funding. I will be travelling to Cambodia with
my mum, her sisters and my cousins in December – Once in a lifetime trip to
experience my mother’s homeland. The trip is based around a special service for
my Yay (Grandmother) who passed away in 2009, and has a shrine there.
Exciting!
Where are we at on the
journey to our baby?
Just prior to
Christmas we got Ds results back and he is indeed a carrier for Cystic
Fibrosis, the initial shock of hearing that diagnosis took my breath away.
Literally. An anomaly with his genes has caused him to be infertile and it is
interesting to note that 98% of males with CF are also infertile due to missing
the vas deferens. We are now waiting on DNA results for myself, to see if I am
also a carrier. If all clear then we move onto TESA.
I’ve been browsing
through Google and message boards absorbing as much information as I can, to
make it easier to explain to family and friends what we are experiencing. This
wee documentary (less than 30mins, shown in three parts) follows the journey of
Jay-Jay and Doms IVF journey; the couple hosts a radio show here in NZ. A lot
of raw emotion. I very much appreciate them sharing their story. http://tvnz.co.nz/sunday-news/jay-and-dom-s-ivf-battle-3568371/video?vid=3572824
From here on out, for
the next couple of years at least, my posts will not be so much focused on our
journey to a baby – Will post about TESA but after that it is a waiting game to
IVF.
Hope your Christmas
was merry and 2012 treats you well!
I'm sorry to hear you're experiencing fertility issues. My husband I spent almost 7 years "waiting." Everyone's journey is different, of course, and this doesn't mean I understand yours...but I have a glimpse of what you might feel on the odd occasion, and I'm sorry from that glimpse alone. I hope that you have pure happiness years from now too, and you'll be leaving comments in hindsight like these on someone else's blog.
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